Now I have been thinking about this for a while and I have already come to the end of the story long time ago... but - Uh.
Anyway - I said something, with - no, not with all the best intentions. I didn't much intent anything. Except that I'm pretty pedantic - like all Aspies - and one thing that is like a red cloth for a bull is when people... well, I don't know how to name it. When they bring forth something that doesn't belong there... Off topic. Irrelevant. Beside the point, extraneous, foreign, garbage, immaterial, impertinent, inapplicable, inapposite, inappropriate, inappurtenant, inapropos, inapt, inconsequent, inconsequential, insignificant, not connected with, not germane, not pertaining to, off the point, off the topic, out of order, out of place, outside, pointless, remote, trivial, unapt, unconnected, unimportant, unnecessary, unrelated, without reference", as the thesaurus suggests as synonyms. Well... doing that is acceptable, because we all make mistakes, but when they refuse to acknowledge they have made a mistake, they refuse to correct the mistake and they demand that you give their stupidity as much space as all the legitimate choices... THAT makes me ballistic.
I have mellowed down a lot and will continue mellowing, but... I can't stand irrelevancy.
Unless they can explain it well... because I adore intelligence and individuality. I love people with ADHD. Trying to be different just to be different and p'ing people off, just because you can, that is despicable.
Anyway, I pointed out an irrelevancy and the person took it very badly.
I'm flabbergasted. But - yeah, things like this happen. Some people can't take critique in any form. They just cannot. I am not in position to criticize her for that, just look at how I reacted on what happened the 17th of February... I'm still yapping about it and crying and feeling really bad and all that. So - I can relate, even though I think there is a difference... but I would now, wouldn't I. There IS a huge difference. I had a relationship that had lasted over half a year with these people, this woman hadn't even heard of me before this comment. I trusted these people and had given my wellbeing in their hands and they abused their power. This woman has no reason to expect that no-one ever says anything critical about her actions on-line, on the contrary, and she's middle-aged and SHOULD KNOW BETTER than get upset by some random unknown person having an opinion on her ability to discern things. Which, BTW, stinks. My people cut off all communication - or almost all, sort of enough to make it worse, and I have been communicating - at least trying to communicate, which isn't easy when this woman seems to have her own definition to about everything I say, and she's really busy interpreting and trying to find excuses, so she doesn't even listen to me - but that's the point...
I have Asperger's so NOBODY bothers to try to listen to me, hear me out or understand me, and for some reason they seem to already have decided not to believe me...
EVERYONE is having more or less wild and faulty interpretations and explanations to my words and actions and intentions, in stead of actually listening to me. If they did listen to me, they wouldn't need to try to figure out what I mean and why, because I say it...
Now, I do use a lot of words, speak to much and I am pretty muddled every now and then, so it can be hard to get my point, but - just ask. I have no problems with trying to simplify and say it clearer. My goal is not to be right - I usually am, and one doesn't learn anything from that, it's much more interesting to be wrong - but to reach an understanding.
I HATE it when people say "let's agree to disagree". WHY? What is ever reached with that attitude? Just enhancing the misunderstanding!
Ok. Not "nobody" and "everyone". Most people who don't know me seems to do these things, most neuronormal people, at least, and neurodifferent people who have adapted a bit too well to the NN social game... Hate that.
The point with this is that how the heck will I ever find my tribe and dare to go out there and do all the things I want to do, when I don't want to be around people?
I really need to get over myself.
Who f-ing cares?
Ok, so I am ugly. Who cares? As if I was the only ugly person in the world? As if being ugly was the worst thing a person can be? As if I had the obligation to keep clear from people as not to pest their pleasant lives? BULL! :-D
Ok, so I am not the most suave person on the planet? WHO CARES! :-D Most of the people are not!
Besides, people who do care are prejudices idiots and don't deserve to have their "sensibilities" considered, and the people who do, don't care :-)