craving...

Dang, it's hard.

I just want pasta, bread, pancakes... a lot of carbs. Now. With sugar and jam and...
I have managed to keep my food plan for this week... the last 3-4 days, I think, and it works. I'm lighter now than a week ago. And at the same time that little devil starts whispering "but it's going so well, you can get yourself something good now, to reward yourself!"

I really want to eat everything from "this is why you're fat" and not even think of this: Damn It
It's not going to happen anyway...

But... it IS happening.
I am getting rid of half of me. If I only can not eat today...
(I am not not eating, mind you. I have eaten a good breakfast and dinner and some snacks, it's just the carbs I won't eat. I'm not hungry, I have cravings. And right now a big bowl of pasta with creamy sauce and fresh bread with fresh butter feels better than the possible fitness next year.
Yeah... if I would get fit as quickly as I can get myself a bowl of pasta, I'd choose fit. But I'll be fat tomorrow, whether I eat the pasta or not.
Instant gratification isn't fast enough, like Carrie Fisher said...)

 

maple bacon doughnuts - with recipe... 

can you see that sugar coating... and that bacon... and that light doughnut... 

you know how it feels... 

and I believe it more than Kate Moss. 

THIS tastes better than skinny feels like.

Uh. I better go make myself some sugar-free fruit salad and watch the Eurovision Song Contest. *sigh*